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lemon_spider
13 August 2008 @ 09:07 pm
So, Allie and I went to the mall today.  We're in the arcade playing DDR, and there's this guy standing there watching us.  He was our age, maybe a year older, but he seemed cool.  So we started talking to him.  We somehow got onto the subject of suicide and he said he had one friend that committed suicide and one that attempted.  He doesn't know why the one who did did it, but he said that if he could bring him back for a day, he would ask him why he did it.  Now, because I've had hide on the brain for the past few days, I automatically thought of him.  I was going to bring up the subject, but I didn't.  And as he was talking, I was thinking: I'd do the same thing.  If I brought hide back for a day, I'd ask him why he did it.  Sure it sounds dumb, but I'm like all those other die-hard hide fans.  We want to know why, and I guess we never will until we get to heaven and see him for ourselves.

Not sure if we'll ever see that guy again (even though he gave us his number), but if an when I ever do, I'm bringing up the subject.
 
 
Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: 'Boom Boom Boom Boom' - Venga Boys
 
 
lemon_spider
13 July 2008 @ 10:50 pm
So, it's after 11 PM, I've been in a foul mood all day because of the heat, I don't feel well, and people have just been rubbing me the wrong way all night!

Okay, first let's start with a little background story....

Why Lemonz/Kael Left Her Old School:
I was at a private Christian school for 3 years.  Everything was fine, until suddenly everything I did was considered "demonic".  Anime was "demonic", the manga I was reading at the time was about demon-fighting nuns so of course it was "demonic", and delving in the paranormal was considered "demonic" because, apparently, all ghosts are demons!  I was pretty much surrounded by uptight "SuperChristians", as I called them, and it annoyed me because I thought differently from them and apparently that "wasn't right".
So, getting sick of all the shit I was getting, I left for public high school.  Things have never been better.

Or so I thought.  I have friends both online and offline.  And, tonight, I was talking to one of those online friends and I mentioned something about the show The Paranormal State.  Now, she used to like that show and everything.  Then, something happened, and suddenly all that stuff is demonic now.  Now, I still dabble in the paranormal, so of course I took this offensively.  I guess if all that stuff is demonic, then that means I worship the devil, right?  Seriously, people who get uptight about stuff like that really piss me the fuck off.  I know it goes against your religion, but you don't have to be so stick-up-butt-ish about it!  Yes, I believe in demons and I believe in angels.  But what if a spirit is an angel?  According to your faith, that makes it a demon, right?

I'm gonna say it again: Get the stick out of your butt and chill the fack out!

You know who you are and, if you're reading this, I know you didn't mean to offend me.  But you did.  And it's gonna take me a while to get over this.
 
 
Current Location: My room/bed
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: 'Top Of The World' - All-American Rejects
 
 
lemon_spider
17 June 2008 @ 06:57 pm

The night was beautiful, despite the air quality alerts that had been coming in that day from the city.  Yoshiki and Kael sat together on the rooftop balcony that looked out towards the city.  An orange glow of the city night life lit up the sky around it, making it appear as though it was encased in a giant dome.  The pair lay together on a blanket facing each other, a bottle of red wine, two wine glasses, and a vase of red roses between them.  Yoshiki’s way of being romantic.  Kael enjoyed it.  With both of them working all the time, they barely got time to sit down and talk, let alone share a glass of wine on the roof..  Kael was just ten years younger than Yoshiki, but she saw him both as a lover and a father figure.  She had never had a steady father figure in her life.  Her own father hadn’t had a thing to do with her, and when she got older, she had never held a steady relationship.  This she had never spoken a word of to Yoshiki, and she felt like she needed too.  Her eyes met his (for once he wasn’t wearing his sunglasses), and she opened her mouth to speak.  “Uhm…Yoshiki,” she began, “I really don’t know how to say this but…you’ve done so much for me.  I mean, letting me live here, letting me work for you, and I’m grateful for that…but you’ve also been like a father to me.  What I mean is, I never really had a father in my life, and no man I’ve been with has measured up to that.”  A smile played at the corners of Yoshiki’s mouth.  He sat up, moved the wine, glasses, and roses off to the side, and drew Kael close to him.  Kael smiled.  He was always warm.

 

Nothing's gonna harm you

Not while I'm around

Nothing's gonna harm you

No sir, not while I'm around

Demons are prowling everywhere

Nowadays

I'll send 'em howling I don't care

I got ways

 

No one's gonna hurt you

No one's gonna dare

Others can desert you

Not to worry, whistle, I'll be there

 

Demons'll charm you with a smile, for a while

But in time, nothing can harm you

Not while I'm around

 

“It’s because I love you,” he whispered in her ear, “And you can be sure that, because of that, you’re safe.  I won’t let anyone screw you over or wrong you in any way.”  He rested his chin on the top of Kael’s head and stared out towards the city.  “And if you’re ever in trouble and need someone to get you out, you know you can call on me and I’ll be there.”  Kael was awestruck.  She had never heard Yoshiki speak to anyone like that before.  Then she wondered: Did he also tell hide the same thing?  Was she really loved as much as he loved hide?  Somehow that seemed impossible.  She turned around to look him in the eye again.

 

Being close and being clever, ain't like being true

I don't need to - I would never hide a thing from you

Like some

 

No one's gonna hurt you

No one's gonna dare

Others can desert you

Not to worry, whistle, I'll be there

 

“You know,” she began, “You can expect the same from me as well.  Everyone goes out of their way to protect those they love, and those they love rarely return the favor.  But I’m returning the favor.  If you ever need to turn to someone for help, just turn to me.”  Yoshiki hugged Kael close, and the pair fell asleep under the starry night sky in each other’s arms.

 

Demons'll charm you with a smile, for a while

But in time, nothin' can harm you

Not while I'm around.

 
 
Current Mood: creative
 
 
lemon_spider
28 April 2008 @ 04:49 pm
As May 2nd draws nearer, I can't help but wonder about a few things.  Did hide know he was going to die that day?  Not like a planned suicide or anything, but like, maybe it /was/ his time to go?  Also, if it wasn't his time, could he have been stopped?  From what I've read, he lived with his girlfriend and his brother and when he came home, he was drunk and went upstairs to bed.  I mean, there were two sober people in the house and no one thought to keep a close watch on him.  But, if it /was/ his time, maybe his brother and girlfriend knew it, and there was nothing they could do to stop him.

I know, I'm rambling on like a crazy person, but I've had this on my mind for a long time.  I'm also not feeling well, which accounts for the rambling.  I just really needed to get this off of my mind, and it was really hard to put into words.
 
 
Current Location: my bed
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: 'Foxfire' movie
 
 
lemon_spider
26 April 2008 @ 07:33 pm
So, it's prom night tonight, and my friend and I decided not to go.  So, we decided to spend the afternoon at the beach.  After we baked on the beach for about 2 hours, we walked the store and restaraunt strip.  The beach community here is small, so there wasn't much to do, but we ended up buying drinks and coffin-shaped butane lighters at the gas station xDD.  Before we headed to the beach, I made a run into Spencer's to get the incense burner I need/want for my May 2nd plans.

I got friggen burnt x.x  My back, legs, and this one spot under my bikini top.  So I'm like, in pain T___T  And what's funny is that I greased up really well and spent the same amount of time on both my back and stomach.
 
 
Current Location: my den
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: 'Grease' movie
 
 
lemon_spider
16 April 2008 @ 08:29 pm

If you could travel in time, which era would you visit and why?


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I'd travel back into the 1770's, just so I could mess with the founding fathers and screw up America's history xD
 
 
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: 'Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me' - TISM
 
 
lemon_spider
13 April 2008 @ 11:26 am
((For a fanfic contest))

The night was young, and a thunderstorm tore through the area.  Set in one the multi-million dollar neighborhoods that dotted the city of Encino, California, stood a house; a house bigger than life itself.  In that house, was a room.  The room held several shelves of books, knickknacks, and other assorted furniture.  Against the wall was a giant flatscreen TV.  On this flatscreen TV was an old Stephen King movie.  In front of the TV was a couch, and on this couch lay our two lovers, one against the other.  Yoshiki lay with his back pressed up against the back of the couch, shirt askew, in dark blue pajama pants.  His head rested on a square pillow that lay on the arm rest.  Kael, laying with her back pressed against Yoshiki’s bare chest, also wore her pajamas, which consisted of a black cami and green terrycloth shorts.  In one hand was a carton of Ben and Jerry’s cookie dough ice cream, and in the other was a spoon.  The ice cream had been sitting out in room temperature for some time, so it was beginning to melt.  She scooped up a spoonful and offered it to Yoshiki.  He moved to receive the bit of ice cream that was offered to him, but before his mouth came in contact with it, a droplet of it escaped the spoon and landed on his bare chest.  “Crap…” he mumbled.  A sly smile crossed Kael’s face.  She placed the spoon and the ice cream container on a napkin she had sitting on the end table.  She sat up and looked Yoshiki in the eye.  He knew what she was about to do, and the thought made him grin.  Kael leaned down and with a slow swipe of her cat-like tongue, she sensually licked up the droplet on Yoshiki’s chest.  Eyes closed, he sighed with pleasure.  Kael smiled seductively.  “S’cuse me a second,” she crooned.  She made her way downstairs to the kitchen, and then returned upstairs with a can of whipped cream in her hand.  Yoshiki smiled and cut the TV off with the remote that sat by Kael’s ice cream.  The sound of rain beating heavily against the windows could now be heard clearly.  On a table by one of the windows sat a table devoted to nothing but candles.  Yoshiki decided to turn this dirty fantasy into something somewhat classy.  He arose from the couch and lit the candles with a lighter that sat on top of one of them.  Kael, still standing in the doorway, watched as the candles were lit and the lights were cut off.  To her, there was nothing more beautiful than Yoshiki’s bronze skin and golden hair glowing in the candlelight.  He looked like some sort of god.  He draped himself across the couch again and waited for his girl to join him.  Forgetting all about her dirty fantasy, she placed the can on the table by the TV, and made her way to the couch.  Yoshiki rose to a sitting position and made room for Kael.  She took a seat at the other end of the small couch.  With the candlelight backlighting her hair, to Yoshiki she was more beautiful than any goddess.  Their eyes made contact.  Kael draped her arms around his neck, closed her eyes, and pressed her lips to his.  He closed his eyes as well, and allowed his lips to open, inviting Kael’s tongue into his mouth.  Before they knew it, they were both horizontal on the couch entwined in a passionate kiss that neither of them wanted to end.  Outside, the winds tore through the trees, thunder rumbled, and the rain poured…

 
 
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: 'Just Tonight' - Jimmy Eat World
 
 
lemon_spider
09 April 2008 @ 03:23 pm

What's your least favorite chore?


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I'd have to say vacuuming.  I have a small house, so it's not much to vacuum, but my mom is just so persnickety about it.  She goes behind me and checks to make sure I got under/around everything and in the corners.  I guess I would like vacuuming more if she didn't do that.
 
 
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: 'Low' - Flow Rider
 
 
lemon_spider
08 April 2008 @ 02:55 pm
Today in 4th block, like towards the beginning, the principal comes over the intercom and tells us that the entire school is on lockdown.  So, the entire class crowds in a corner away from the door, the teacher shuts off the lights, closes the blinds, and we wait to see what's going on.  Naturally, we all thought it was a drill, until the teacher checked his e-mail.  Apparently there was supposedly a bomb somewhere in the school.  And..that's when I started to freak the fuck out.  I kept thinking to myself, "Ohgawd, we're gonna end up like Columbine and VT.  I'm not gonna get to graduate, I'm not gonna go to college, I'm gonna die!"  And the classroom is on the second floor, so if a bomb did go off, we were screwed.  So, after about 45 minutes, the initial fear started to wear off and I started to get bored.  So, I started to doze off, then I heard the teacher on the phone, and after he got off he told us that apparently someone had bought a gun to school with them and they were checking bags and stuff.  Towards the end of the class, the lockdown ended and we left.  Gawd, I hope something like that doesn't happen again ;__;  
 
 
Current Mood: anxious
 
 
lemon_spider
07 April 2008 @ 07:31 pm
Soyeah, I got my graduation invites, cap, gown, and tassel today.  Needless to say I never thought this day would come.  I mean, it feels like I've been in school forever!  I've been to my cousins' graduations, my brother's graduation, my friends' graduation, but I never thought I'd be preparing for my own.  And I thought getting my class ring last year was exciting. xDD Gawd, I feel so old now.
 
 
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: 'Red Christmas' - Yoshiki
 
 
lemon_spider
05 April 2008 @ 11:43 am

How are your Saturday nights different now than they were five years ago?


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I changed high schools about two years ago.  While I was at my old school, I had barely any friends and had no one to go out with on the weekends, so I spent the weekend by myself.  Now that I'm at a different school, I have scores of friends, and we're always doing something on the weekends, whether it be clubbing, shooting pool, or hanging out at the mall arcade.
 
 
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: 'Blue Blood' - X-Japan
 
 
lemon_spider
04 April 2008 @ 11:29 pm

What was the last thing you "got away with?"


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Oh wow, let's see...
Well, back in middle school whenever I would get bad grades, my parents would take my laptop out of my room.  Well, I knew where they put it when they took it (under the living room sofa), so I would take it back to my room and hide it under my pillow.  I'd use it, and when I heard my parents coming down the hall (I keep my door closed), I'd close my laptop and shove it under my pillow.  They never figured it out xDD
 
 
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: 'Kiri' - Monoral
 
 
lemon_spider
04 April 2008 @ 11:01 pm
WIKIPEDIA BAND!


Go to the Wikipedia home page and click 'random article'.
That is your band's name.
Click random article again; that is your album name.
Click random article 15 more times; those are the tracks on your album.

Band name:
Alabama State Defense Force

Album:
Port Byron Central School District

1. Ballinglass Incident
2. Baidyanath
3. Roman Catholic Diocese of Tzaneen
4. Kolossi
5. Boise Towne Square Mall
6. Angelfish charity
7. Gueishan Island
8. Beautiful Midnight (Dave Matthews FTW!)
9. Wellington People F.C.
10. Sixteenth dynasty of Egypt
11. Deng Mao
12. Jasper County, Indiana
13. Wild Weasel
14. The Wild Angels
15.Hedonic treadmill

Last time I did this, everything I got sounded death metal band-like.  Now that I do it a second time, everything sounds emo band-ish xDDD
 
 
Current Mood: full
Current Music: 'In Motion [voiceless version]' - hide
 
 
lemon_spider
03 April 2008 @ 10:20 pm

Are you planning on doing any spring cleaning this year? If so, please share a cleaning tip you swear by.


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If you don't know what it is/was, or you can't remember the last time you used it/wore it, throw it out or give it away!
 
 
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: 'When I Get Home' - Mayday Parade
 
 
lemon_spider
02 April 2008 @ 08:00 pm
Yeah, I've been somewhat busy with school, friends, schoolwork, etc.  Anyway, here's an update!

Spring break was last week.  I spent Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday with my friends Allie, Kari and Kake.  Sunday we had an Easter picnic in the park and made utter fools of ourselves on the swings xDD  Monday, I spent the day with Allie and Kari at the mall and spent the night at Allie's helping her clean out her room.  Tuesday, I got up with Allie and went with her to school.  Kari and I hung out in the student lounge waiting for her class to get out, then we invaded the arcade for like an hour.  Afterwards, we went back to Allie's and bleached each other's hair.  Before I headed home, I headed over to the PetSmart where Allie works and bought myself a red/blue/pink male betta fish I named 'Yokan'.  I have yet to get a tank for him xD  The rest of my break I spent cleaning and rearranging things in my room, hanging more posters *poster whore*, etc.  After hearing what happened to Yoshiki Friday night, I was somewhat ill Friday and Saturday, and from what I've read, he's fine so YAY~!  School started back on Monday, and thankfully I have Friday off.  One extra day to write an English paper that's due this Monday! xD
 
 
Current Mood: content
Current Music: 'Wors Pies In London' - Sweeney Todd soundtrack
 
 
lemon_spider
23 February 2008 @ 10:41 am
Just like the title says //.^  A group of friends and I decided that, instead of going to a concert last night, that we'd invade the pool hall instead.  Okay, so I've never really played pool before, but it's not hard to learn once you get the hang of it.  Oh, and about it being suggestive... you play with wooden sticks and balls!  It doesn't get any more suggestive than that!  The whole time, my friends and I were making joked about the stocks, balls, holes, etc. xDD

After all that was done, we all invaded my friend Kake's house and played Call of Duty 4 for hide knows how long.  One of our friends and I crashed at Kake's house for the night.  I'm up, Kake had to be at the school for some chorus thing, and our friend (a guy //.^) is still asleep on the sofa in the den.  I'm so tempted just to go in there and pounce on him to wake him up xD
 
 
Current Location: Kake's room
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Genkai Haretsu - hide
 
 
lemon_spider
15 February 2008 @ 03:02 pm
Okay, so in my drama class, we combined with one of the other drama classes and are working on a musical.  The musical takes place in the hippie-era 60's, and the teacher is under the impression that it takes place in the poodle-skirt, diner, All-American 60's (the early 60's).  Because there's a band in the musical, I put my name down for one of the band members.  Ever since I put my name down, I've been doing some hardcore searching for 60s protest songs and such that we could use in place of one of the songs in the musical.  The music that came with it sucks balls, so we're replacing it.

Okay, so the parts were announced today, and I didn't even get the part I put my name down for!  Basically, the teachers assigned the other class all the good/main parts, and left the rest for our class.  I know I really shouldn't be complaining, but I've been doing plays and such since I was 13, and I ALWAYS get the minor, insignificant, stupid parts.  And the character I got only shows up once in the whole play, so I'm not even on stage until then, meaning I don't get to do any of the musical numbers.

Another thing, the drama teachers SUCK at coreography!  For our opening number, they have us doing this one step OVER AND OVER.

I'm thinking of just quitting this musical all together.  I mean, I don't really need that class for anything, so I can afford to fail it.  The hard part is going to be confronting my drama teacher and telling her that I don't want to be in it.

Yeah, I'm probably making a big deal out of nothing, but I'm just sick of it!  I'm sick of ALWAYS being stuck with the small shitty parts, I'm sick of teachers playing favorites, and the fact that the teachers are confusing the early 60s with the late 60s just pisses me off to no end.  I mean, no one said ';groovy', 'far out', or 'peace man' in the early 60s.  Also, HIPPIES DIDN'T EXIST IN THE EARLY 60S!

Okay, I think I'm done now.
 
 
Current Location: Meh room
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: 'Comment' - hide
 
 
lemon_spider
14 February 2008 @ 06:49 pm
No, it's not because I don't have a boyfriend (hell, I'm fucking glad I don't have one x.x), it's because it's just a pointless holiday all together!  It was created by the card companies so that they could sell more shit.  I mean, why set aside one day of the year to show those closest to you that you really care?  Showing someone you care isn't all about buying them roses or a giant teddy bear, it's really the little things that you do for them that mean the most.  I mean, as my mom's V-day gift, I took the time to make dinner for the two of us.

So, since my friends and I really don't have any plans for today, I've occupied myself with X-Japan live vids, hide PVs, silly hide fanvids, pretty much everything and anything X-related.  Later, I might pop in a Depp flick and swoon over him. xD

My Jrock Valentines:

hide

Yoshiki
Dai
Kyo
Kaoru
Atsushi
Heath
Pata
Toshi
Mana
Klaha
Mao
 
 
Current Location: Meh room
Current Mood: full
Current Music: 'Junk Story' - hide
 
 
lemon_spider
12 February 2008 @ 06:58 pm
After losing the password to my old account (kaitsurinu_) and not having been here in years, I have returned!  It's great to see how much LJ has improved since I was here last. //.^

Anywho, I decided to come back after a great threat of me being flamed on DA for ranting and such in my journal.  Now, my DA journal will be reserved for oneshot fanfics that I don't want to post as a Deviation.  Yeah, I'm as tired as fuck right now, so half of what I type probably won't make any sense. //.^'

Soyeah. Hi.  Normally, I go by 'Kael', but on here, I go by 'Lemonz'.  And if there's anyone else out there who goes by the name of 'Lemonz', suck it up, dear.  Though I may appear as a very rude/sarcastic person, but I'm rather nice once you get to know me.  If you get on my bad side or give me a reason to get mad, I probably won't talk to you anymore, depending on what it is that you did to make me mad.  Yes, I don't forgive easily.

My music tastes range from classic rock, metal, and hard rock, to upbeat techno and dance.  Most of all, I lovelovelove Jrock/Jpop!  hide (X-Japan) and Kami (Malice Mizer) are my gods.  May their souls rest in peace as they entertain the angels. <33

I love the paranormal.  Enough said.

I enjoy Asian things, and because of this, I've been called Wasian, Wapanese, Wapo, etc.  Note: Just because you like Asian things doesn't make you Wapo!  A wapo is someone who is unhealthyly obsessed with all things Asian and constantly wishes he/she was Asian.  Not me.

I detest stupid people.  I have no tolerance for them.

DDR is crack for my feet.  I play on Standard and Heavy.

I pretty much came back here to join and post in the Jrock/Jrock humor communities, so there's no telling when and how often this journal will be updated.

And one last thing: I'm sure everyone is wondering why I didn't chose the lemon emotes xD  The foxies were so much cuter //.^
 
 
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: 'Mouth' - In The Groove soundtrack
 
 
 
 

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